My dad graduated from medical school in 1925. He was a general practitioner for forty years. His office, his patients (some paid him, some didn’t), the housecalls, those were my earliest memories.
I graduated from medicine (same school as my dad) when I was 23. Then ten years in residencies (internal medicine and pathology), research fellowship, and specialty military experience, and the rest in teaching and practice. I am now 83. Medicine is about all I’ve known.
Mentors, the greatest professors at the greatest universities; interaction with bright fellow students and fellow residents; teaching and supervising bright students and residents, increasingly from India and then the middle east; experiences at hospitals huge and small; brilliant diagnoses made and missed; being deposed by lawyers; patients young and patients senile, patients convinced they were dying but weren’t and patients actually dying and denying or relishing it. I expected such experiences. Early on I began collecting them for the book I would write.
I expected a career occupied by patients. I did not expect it to be occupied by politics, agencies, paperwork, summons. I expected to answer to patients and their families, to my conscience, my God, not to bureaus, agencies, lawyers, courts, activists, reporters, insurance companies, governments.
In the 1960s, as a young internist just starting practice, I witnessed the gentle arrival of Medicare, a benign shower of blessing upon the neediest. We still made housecalls back then. I gave new patients 2 hours for a complete workup, and charged $13. I have lived to see the GovernmentCare tsunami overwhelm the land. Now a patient (recently I’ve become one) can’t even talk to his doctor on the phone, or for more than 7 minutes in person, at $188. It would be an odd old doctor who wouldn’t have a lot to say about all that too. I do, and will, in odd ways and places hereabouts.
When young and beginning to write, I was enthralled with a particular literary and personal style, and strove to emulate it, the kind with an aloof disdain breathed through a certain smug wisdom only select old men achieve. I achieved it early. A precocious curmudgeon is what I became, and cheerfully. In inflexible old age I’m stuck with it, but not so sure about it.
I’m still the contented creationist curmudgeon when, as an old scientist, I write about Evolution vs. Creation. For me, if not, thank goodness, for a young Dr. Sean Pitman, that outlook seems the most appropriate for dealing with the idea that denies that life has meaning. If you’re not a curmudgeon to start with, Evo will evolve you into one. But that persona no longer feels right when, as a doctor, I am talking about patients and medicine, things with life that change a man in a year more than Evo can change a fruit fly in an eon.
A very old man now, I’m a totally different person than I was as a clueless nineteen-year-old freshman taking my first scared look at a cadaver. I aspired to be a certified curmudgeon, that much I thought I knew. Now curmudgeonry seems a cocoon I’m finally ready, and eager, to slough, but can’t quite. After a lifetime, and a life, in medicine, and decades of planning to write about it, I don’t feel ready, yet. About everything else I am quick to blab, but not medicine. Of experiences and gripes, yes. But of medicine as a field, a philosophy, a way of life, a ministration, a giving; of real people; of following Christ as He practiced medicine, not quite.
So I'm left with a collection of stories and rants I don't quite know what to do with. I guess I’ll go ahead and publish them here on my new site, which is not a blog, which saves me from flaming comments, of which the most aggrieved might well be my own.
As a freshman medical student, I took this photograph in 1948 from the 2nd story of the Anatomy Building (before buildings were named for Big Doners). Mostly in white shirts and ties, standard dress in those days, with neither backpack nor bottled water, our class has just come from chapel service at Burden Hall.
Now Loma Linda University School of Medicine, it was The College of Medical Evangelists in my day. Quaint name, that, and long gone. But embarrassed by it, and what it proclaimed, I am not. Deep down I never was. What's in a name?
We were graduated in 1952 after 4 years of medical school but granted degrees the year of licensure, so ours is the class of 1953A (2 graduating classes that year). In 2013 we -- the 5-6 remaining, and able, of the 100 in the class -- will have our 60th anniversary.